Christmas, just not feeling it this year.
Ive tried listening to music, watching Christmas specials, all to no avail. I’m not sure when I lost the Christmas spirit. One day it was there, the next, it was gone. Maybe it’s all the bs associated with it, maybe it’s more.
Ive tried writing this post several times. It’s hard to talk about this and not come off like some whiny, emo bitch.
I don’t hate this time of year exactly, more like I have become ambivalent to it. This is a funny 12 days of Christmas version.
If it weren’t for the kids, Im not sure I’d even bother with a tree etc. I’m hoping once the tree is decorated it will help. I’m not holding my breath though.
Another issue is, no train this year. Ive had a train under the tree every year for about 5 years now. The first 3 were an HO train and the last 2 were my Lionel O Gauge train. But, now we have cats, that pee and destroy things. I can’t afford for them to ruin my train cars. So, no train, or the little villages we always set up. And my wife doesn’t seem phased by this. Maybe that’s another issue with the holiday blahs.
Well fuck, this is starting to sound emo. Time to end this little rant. I hope you are in a better mood than I am.